Releasing

 Sometimes there is something to be said and sometimes there isn’t. What’s that supposed to mean? I have no idea but at least it got things going. So, repeating myself, sometimes there is something to be said and you go and say it, it’s released and you’re free to move on, but if you don’t say it it doesn’t go away, it stays there locked up inside. That’s reality. Say the tiniest irrelevant pebble falls out of your pocket onto the floor on the far side of the bed out of sight and you never go near it - come back in a year and if it hasn’t been removed in the meantime it will still be there. That’s the integrity of reality for you. Just because something seems irrelevant and superfluous doesn’t mean it will disappear out shame for its superfluousness. 

And the same with the internal world, however invisible it might look - we don’t have this perfect integrity in the physical domain but then all this order breaks down and there’s some kind of shoddiness internally. We can talk about simply being in the now, but we’re always in the now and the rest of this now we’ve always been in doesn’t just disappear just because we’d like it to. If something energetically needs to be said, as it were, felt, experienced and so released, then however blissful and calm we’d like to be wallowing around in the present without any baggage from the rest of the now we’ve always been inhabiting, some kind of spiritual amoeba or jellyfish, it’s still got to get left out somehow. 

Which is the point I guess in things like suffering, however awful the experience. All that pain isn’t just arising in that current moment, instead it’s a kind of trigger for floods of accumulated darkness and pain right through life to come to the surface in a rush and get released. That’s why the pain can be so intense - so much comes up in such a condensed period. You even get societies encouraging this releasing through rituals, tragic theatre, catharsis and so on. Even roaring your head off at some piece of sporting theatre is probably managing something similar - if it’s exciting that is. If not you’ve probably not released much! You might even come out feeling worse.